Five Minute Friday - Broken

This five minute friday is about the prompt - broken. Broken - Sometimes this is how I think the world views me. No one understands how I feel sometimes. The fact that I'm 27 almost 28 and still don't have a husband and a minivan. He is out there somewhere. I find myself praying for my future husband a lot. He will have to have a lot of patience. When I look back in my life, I'm not really sure if I'm ready for marriage. But God has laid on my heart, which is no where in Scripture, but His Spirit says to me that when the right man comes along, God will prepare me. I won't be broken. Only God can help me become unbroken. I know that there is some man out there waiting for me who will accept me as I am broken.... or unbroken..... or bandaged up. God is so good. I don't have to say anything yet He knows me and knows my broken state. He is the only one who can fill up this heart with His Spirit and fill me with knowledge of His word. When the right man comes along I know that Jesus will fill in the broken pieces and I will be brand new.

Five Minute Friday - Present

Here I am and it's Friday woo hoo! okay here I go on the topic Present

Go!

I have never felt like I need to totally let go and live in the present than right now. Lately the enemy has been trying to get at me over and over about my past and things that i know I can't change. The present is here. I know all my sins are wiped by His blood. My present is here in this community, with my heart open, loving the people that God has placed here with me. My present is sharing communion  with them, His body and blood. I know that I can't do anything to change the past or to make that better, but I can live and laugh and love and cry hug and be there for people when I need to be. Sara is having her surgery today and I can't help but be in this present with her because I know how it feels to have surgery like that. I also am in the present because the house fire happened a day before my birthday, just like her surgery is happening today on her birthday. I don't need to think about the fire I need to be here in the present for sara I know God is with her, but without our close christian friends, it's hard to get through the tough times. Let's continue our journey here in the present.

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But please continue to pray for Sara. Happy Birthday girl!

Yesterday's Post - Better Days and Fruits of the Spirit

Today nothing out of the ordinary happened which was good....really good. My roommate got approved for her surgery. Please pray for her that she has peace before and throughout and after the whole surgery. She's such a blessing in my life.

Today at the front desk, was uneventful. The day really flew by. I had a nice lunch. I fixed a sandwich and ran to my room to hang out for a bit. I even did a little work on the transcription website. I remember I did that last year, I started in September and I made a few bucks. This week I've decided not to take any side jobs. Working from 8 to 5 plus more work is a lot. I did that all last week with my own cleaning team.

Bible study was really good. We talked about the fruits of the Spirit. I realized in my own life, that I have been judging things that weren't necessarily bad. We judge so many things that aren't that important. Like for example. Are you a republican or democrat, You can guarantee when you say that, the other person will be totally opposite. Why should Christians even care? I know who cares, our flesh cares. Satan cares...not God. Then afterwards I got to thinking about how we are constantly bombarded with things on Facebook and also on other social media websites. For a moment, I thought about deleting my Facebook. We also talked about how Christians can sometimes be the most judging and how Paul talked about the circumcised and UN circumcised. I could just see in my mind's eye the picture. A circusized jew saying na na boo boo i'm better than you. I'm this way and you're not. Then I thought of how this applies today and it applies because a lot of the times I want to judge people. Especially before I lived in community. I would think things about a person based on what I saw. Like for example, I always thought based off of 1 Corinthians 6:19 which says

Do you not know that your bodies are temples of the Holy Spirit, who is in you, whom you have received from God? You are not your own;

What did I think before I came here? Ewww, how much of a christian can that person be, they have tattoos of  crosses and angels on their skin, but the Bible says that our body is a temple of His Spirit. It's the same thing as being circumcised or not circumcised. It doesn't matter. It also doesn't matter how rich or how poor I am. It doesn't matter that I like blue shoes and another person going to my church has white shoes. Come on church! We need to realize that once we stop focusing on these trivial things, then maybe we can advance His church.

Galatians 5:2-6

2 Mark my words! I, Paul, tell you that if you let yourselves be circumcised, Christ will be of no value to you at all. 3 Again I declare to every man who lets himself be circumcised that he is obligated to obey the whole law. 4 You who are trying to be justified by the law have been alienated from Christ; you have fallen away from grace. 5 For through the Spirit we eagerly await by faith the righteousness for which we hope. 6 For in Christ Jesus neither circumcision nor uncircumcision has any value. The only thing that counts is faith expressing itself through love.

Bad Day for Me Today

Today was.....interesting. I was working the phones at the front desk. Since Jeannie is on vacation, I'm working her shift as well. So I work from 8 am to 5 pm. This morning I had a reporter call. No one was answering....he's demanding answers from someone he wants to speak with but that person isn't answering home phone, cell or work. Not much more I can do for him. So I have to deal with him all morning. I felt like he was a ping pong ball that just kept getting tossed back and forth. This afternoon, the reporter guy left me alone. But THIS TIME, a copier supplier calls a dozen times. He wants answers out of me that I can't give him. I ask him if it is a sales call, he says no but ma'am you're business needs to buy printing material. I told him like I was told to tell him that we do all of our printing in the house. He keeps on and on and on. I know from working in a call center that the employees get “incentives” for selling stuff. He would not let go of this one. Thankfully Dave, aka the funny man was standing there and he got on the line and mumbled up words and hung up on him. I was trying to be nice to him. I understand the job.

Then this homeless guy that I seee come by every day. He comes by and asks if we have any hotdogs. Usually after a Chicago Cubs game, we give out hotdogs and brautwursts to the people who come by our door. When the hotdogs are gone, we put up a sign that says NO HOTDOGS in big letters drawn on a paper in front of the window. So from the side window where you can talk to me before I buzz you in. Well, today the door was open. Usually this guy asks if there are any hotdogs (several times), then tries to get in. Usually he can't use I have to buzz him in. Today the door was open, because people were delivering can sodas to the vending machine. Well this guy comes in the front door, ugh, he comes up to me after I told him three times already that there are no hotdogs. I have explained to him (many times) that we only have hotdogs after Cubs home games. I said I'm sorry Sir I'm going to have to ask you to leave. He says some mumbled up words and then after a few more times of me saying that he walks out the door.

So, then at 5 when it's time for me to get off, I wait and I wait and I wait and I wait. My replacement is supposed to be here by now. Then I wait and wait and call the team clean coordinators who don't answer their phones. I think to myself maybe they are getting dinner. So I wait but then the line gets down so low that there is no line. So I think, hmmmm, then a hospital calls wanting information about one of our seniors. I told them I would get their case workers on the line for more information. So I call and call and call some more.....But I can't get ahold of anyone. So finally I get ahold of someone after four phone calls. I get the case worker connected to the hospital. I'm so frustrated that my replacement hasn't arrived. I start crying. I hope I don't get in trouble but the whole day was just a mess. I work eight hours here and now I have to sit here when I'm not supposed to be here. It's not fair.

Well Gary bless his heart, he is one of the guys that does phones from 10:30 till 8 when I come in. He's so willing to do things for other people. He sees me crying and says he will take over.

So now I'm in my room blowing off the steam for the day on my new netbook. I can finally use it now because the charger arrived.

Today was about the worst day I've had since I've been here so far, even when I worked in the kitchen. I've never felt this bad. Anyways, from one of the discipleship classes I had. The class on the book called Community and Growth, Jean Vanier says that some days you won't even like community. Today is one of those days for me. Today I'm thankful that my roommate went to work for a little bit.

Prayer request – please pray that I would not be discouraged working the front desk. I'm supposed to be encouraging and today I feel like I wasn't. Please pray for Sara, she has to have surgery on her broke foot friday. They are going to put a pin in her foot. Doesn't that sound familiar to someone? Haha